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05 September 2012 @ 10:23 am
Hi my beautiful ones,

Today is my 27th birthday (which, holy shit, old), and to celebrate I've decided to contract a double ear infection.

Seriously, I've been sick since Saturday. You know what sucks worse than being sick? Being sick on the weekend. And you know what sucks worse than being sick on the weekend? Being sick on a three day weekend. And you know what sucks worse than that? Still being sick on your GODDAMN BIRTHDAY. And to top it off, it just keeps getting worse. My body is just like, have some more pain! And here, how about a higher fever! And let's toss in some random nausea and dizziness just for S's and G's.

I've been on meds since Monday but they are VERY much not helping. I'm going back to the doctor later today to see what can be done. I'm thinking amputation. One doesn't really need ears, right?

'Til then I'll just be curled up in a ball on the couch mainlining Prison Break reruns and trying not to cry.

I sincerely hope that you all are having a better my birthday than I am.
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13 April 2012 @ 08:58 am
Hay hay,

So.... seems kind of weird posting for the first time in months just to say that I won't be posting any time soon. Basically just wanted this here for anyone who may come looking for me in the near future.

I'm moving back home next week! (Some of you may remember that I moved 800 miles from home last fall to go to school, and also just because I felt like it.) Even though moving back home so soon wasn't actually part of the plan, I feel good about the decision. School's done for the semester (I'm transferring to a school closer to home to complete my degree), so now's as good a time as any to head back. I've enjoyed my time here, I feel like I've changed and grown as a person, and I'm ready to go back home. I miss my family and my friends, the familiarity, feeling like I belong somewhere. But my life isn't going to be exactly what it was either. I need to make some changes, I know that.

For now the plan is this:
+ Continue with school until I finish my degree
+ Go back to work at the courthouse until I finish school or find something I like better
+ Move in with my friend Mary at the end of the summer (I'm actually really excited about this!)
+ Hang out with my family and friends more, be more social
+ Continue to be awesome and work to become even more awesome

I've been working on my social anxiety disorder a lot lately (after having realized that it was actually the root of a LOT of my problems), and this summer I have a plan in place to really become more social and hopefully make some IRL friends/reconnect with my old friends. Because of that, I really feel it would be best if I cut back SIGNIFICANTLY on how much time I spend with fandom & social network sites, since those are huge avoidance crutches for me.

So I'm officially on hiatus from livejournal, tumblr, & twitter until at least August 1st. You can still reach me via Facebook, AIM, and e-mail if you need me. (I'm keeping my e-mail notifications on for LJ so you can also get in touch with me through PM.)

I hope that you will keep me on your f-lists, but if you would like to take this opportunity to cut me loose, I understand.

I shall miss you, my babies! <3

(P.S. openmydoors & loki_dip, you are both required to continue e-mailing, IMing, writing, and FBing me WHETHER YOU LIKE IT OR NOT.)
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12 February 2012 @ 07:36 pm
I don't think I've mentioned this here, but I'm posting to caroline_daily on Sundays. It's an awesome little comm if you love Miss Caroline Forbes (which, let's be honest, you do). alexia_drake posts on all the other days and she has posted some STUNNING stuff. So head on over and join the comm! Because we all could use a little more Vampire Barbie in our lives. <3

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10 February 2012 @ 08:02 pm

All I want is to curl up on the couch with some pizza and watch The Vampire Diaries, SPN, and Fringe. But I have a Reading Response assignment due in 4 hours. Have I started it, even? No, no I have not.

Fuck you, Benjamin Franklin. You invented bifocals, can't you also invent a way to write this damn paper about yourself??

That's it, I'm pulling out the big guns. It's Write or Die time.

BT-dubs, you can expect more whiny posts like these from me until I get my degree, basically. Sorry.
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07 February 2012 @ 11:15 pm
So I posted on my FB page about the Prop 8 ruling, and how much I approved. So naturally a former co-worker of mine replies by quoting Leviticus about how a man lying with another man is an abomination blah blah blah.

And I'm just like, "Listen, I respect your beliefs, but I just don't think it's right for a government to take away anybody's inherent civil rights."

And co-worker is all "how is it INHERENT?? Is it also inherent for a man to sleep with and marry an animal?? Yada yada I'm crazy."

Just. Ughhhhhhh. I'm literally shaking. FUCKING CONFRONTATION, DNW.

I want SO BADLY to quote the Leviticus verse that says wearing clothing made from two different materials woven together is ALSO an abomination and follow it up with, "Hope you haven't worn any poly-blends lately, yo!" But I'm TRYING to be a good person and stay respectful.

I mean, I don't vomit my liberal agenda all over his homophobic rants; I just scroll on past. So why can't he stay off my FB page and let me just CELEBRATE THE FUCKING VICTORY FOR HUMANITY that is the 9th circuit's ruling in peace?

Live and let live, people.

I hate Christians right now. And I fucking AM one.
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16 January 2012 @ 12:31 am
OHAI. Let's just pretend that I post here all the time, mmkay?

~ Today I did laundry bc it really, really needed to be done. But I hate doing laundry here bc our laundry room is located off the sun porch so you have to go outside to get to it, and it is fucking cold here today. (And yes I have become one of those annoying southerners who refers to 45 degrees in January as "fucking cold." Whatever, if I can't wear capris then it's too cold.) And also our dryer is tiny and old and never, ever dries the clothes all the way. And also it's creepy in there bc there is one of those naked lightbulbs hanging from the ceiling and you have to pull the chain to turn it on. You know what I'm talking about. And it always flickers and I'm just like

Or sometimes I pretend it's Castiel, which is fun.

ANNNYWAY. My sheets smell like oranges now because I sprayed them with body spray after I got them out of the dryer. I'm really excited to sleep on them later.

~ Once Upon a Time was SOOOOO good tonight. spoilers for tonight's epCollapse )

You know what the episode could've used more of, though?
<----This guy
P.S. The captcha tinypic gave me for that gif was "charmed life." Coincidence? Doubtful!

~ I watched In Time earlier. WHYYY is Justin Timberlake so amazing at everything?? I just, I love him. With the dancing and the singing and the three-piece suits and the dicks in boxes and whatnot. I also deeply love Cillian Murphy, unnnfff. Except I don't get why he always seems to be playing bad or at least morally gray dudes. My fave role of his was in 28 Days Later, and he was a damn HERO in that one. Plus he got to use his real accent. Mmmm, Irish guys. Meanwhile, Vinny Kartheiser should continue to play villains all the time because he is THE BEST at it. Also, Amanda Seyfried is sooo pretty. Girl has some bony knees though. So... yeah, pretty much all I took away from In Time was eye candy.

~ School is going really well. Two of my online classes are the type where you can work at your own pace, and I am kicking some serious ASS at those. I'm thinking of dropping my film class though bc I've already seen like 90% of the movies on the syllabus, and I'm just not sure what I'd be getting out of it, honestly. Like, in the back of my mind I always had this dream of going to film school and maybe becoming a filmmaker, but lately I've realized that, as much as I do love film, I'm just never, ever going to become a filmmaker. Like, I just don't have it in me, and I don't want to waste any more time trying to make myself into something I'm not. And I should really just let that dream go and focus on the ones that I can actually see myself doing. So yeah, probably going to drop film.

~ Still haven't found a job, and I am super poor now. My savings is basically gone and I'm just living on my credit cards right now, which I HATE to do. My financial aid refund will come through in like a month, but things are going to be tight for me until then. UNLESS I can find a job, but who the fuck knows? I didn't think I'd be looking this long. Looks like it'll be Ramen for me for a while!
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14 December 2011 @ 02:41 am
Public Service Announcement: Harper's Island is currently available on Netflix instant streaming. Go. Watch. Love. You're welcome.

And now, let's talk about what I've been watching, shall we?

Been on a bit of a Criminal Minds kick lately. My DVR is set to record ALL the episodes, and I just sit down and mainline several at a time whenever I have nothing better to do. My roommate is a really big fan and keeps trying to get me to have ~serious discussions~ about the characters and their relationships and histories. I don't know how to tell her that I'm just in it for the grisly murders. *shrugs*

As far as my old staples are concerned, here are a few brief thoughts on each:
here be spoilers for probably every show you are watchingCollapse )

Why do I always have so many words?
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What is your favorite holiday carol or song?

Wow, I don't think I've ever actually answered one of these before, but this one's easy!

I am super into holiday music. From Black Friday to New Year's, it is pretty much all I listen to. It's what I grew up with. My dad has his Johnny Mathis & Bing Crosby albums on repeat all season long, my mom loves her carols, and one of my last memories with my Grandma Rosie was singing along to "Snoopy vs. the Red Baron." I have lots of favorites, depending on what I'm in the mood for, but hands down my absolute be all, end all FAVORITE holiday song is "The Christmas Song" by Nat King Cole.

Now, a lot of people (a LOT of people) have taken on this song over the years. But for my money nobody but nobody does it or will ever do it like Nat. He just. His voice is SO lovely, so silky, so sweet. That song is a warm fire, moonlight on snow, hot cocoa with tons of marshmallows, snuggling under a blanket with someone you love. It is all the best things about Christmas, and Nat's voice is the star on top of the tree, bathing everything in a warm, soft light.

Why yes, Christmas does turn me into a giant sap, why do you ask? ;)

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06 November 2011 @ 10:21 pm

You guys! My car is packed. My driving directions are dl'd. I have a furnished waterfront apt waiting for me in Wilmington. And I'm leaving first thing in the morning!!!!


My. Body. Is. Ready.


Seriously tho I'm having all the feelings regarding this move. Excited. Scared. Optimistic. Nervous. Nauseous. Leave me lotsa comments so I don't feel like I'm in this thing alone, yeah? I'll post pics as soon as I can.



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15 October 2011 @ 08:10 pm
I spent a good chunk of time today plotting my novel for next month, and also updating my profile on the nano site. (I'm kilynn16 over there as well.)

What do you guys think of this synopsis for my novel?:

College dropout and all-around failure at life Will Mason has been pretty certain since childhood that he's a first-class freak. Not an "a little bit too into Star Wars" type freak. More like an "accidentally blew up a building with the power of his mind" type freak. So imagine Will's utter lack of surprise when the weirdo who's been stalking him for the last few months taps him on the shoulder and is all, "Hey bro, you're totally right."

Okay, so maybe Will's stalker isn't some weirdo; he's an angel named Elemiah. And maybe Will isn't a freak; he's actually a member of a race of human-angel hybrids called the nephilim. It doesn't make his life any less bizarre. And when Elemiah informs Will that he's been chosen to lead an army of other nephilim into battle against demons? Never in his life has Will wanted so badly to simply be normal.

At least when you're spending all your time with a surprisingly funny angel, a distractingly sexy prophet, and a flat-out terrifying drill sergeant, it's easy to pretend you're the normal one.

I intentionally didn't give a lot away (mostly because I still don't know a lot about what happens lol), and I tried to keep it in the MC's voice. But Idk, I've had a lot of coffee today and I've been reading a lot of lulzy TVD episode recaps, and I feel like that bled over here.

So just tell me straight up: 1) Does this synopsis make sense? and 2) Does the story sound like something you might like to read?

I appreciate the feedback! And it looks like nanowrimo.org still doesn't have their buddy component up, but I'd love a link to your profiles over there so I can add you later.
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